Hello July

getting healthy

I had a 9 day migraine. I started having a headache last Monday and it continued through the week, into the weekend, and didn’t let up officially until yesterday. I haven’t had that kind of pain in years, and most certainly not since my surgery. I called my chiropractor to get an adjustment, and that helped. Yesterday’s adjustment helped too. I talked to Dr. Fort (and the new doctor they have whose name I can’t remember because I fail at that kind of thing) and they said that my neck was not “on straight” and that the misalignment could be directed to the weight lifting I had been doing.

Mental note: don’t do heavy weights on shoulders anymore.

So the last week of June and the beginning of July was off to a great start (note the sarcasm) and it just keeps getting better.

I ran in the Orlando United 5k and I’ll have a recap of that race on the blog on Friday, but I found this photo on the professional photographers page (and she gave us free downloads, how awesome is that?) and it made me frown. _MPM1320_resize

My arms look big, my legs look big, my face is frumpy… grr. It was at the start of the 5k, I’m already drenched in sweat, and feeling disgustingly gross and sticky. And then look at super hot Marisa running next to me. Who, BTW, ran with me the entire time even knowing that I HATE it when people run with me, and she was able to force me to slow down and pay attention to my heart rate which was going nuts because it was hot as BALLS and the humidity made it worse and she’s kind of a rock star for that.

ANYWAY – I feel like I look like every one of the 213.5 lbs I weighed in at this morning. And that makes me sad and teary.

BUT – I am working on it. I’m working out on a regular basis now, and I start half training on the 18th. I know that my legs have gotten stronger, and that I actually have lost a little in my face. I know that things are better than they were last month. So why am I letting a photo bother me as much as it is? Good question. Probably because I want to believe I am making good changes and this photo says otherwise. (okay, realistically I know that this photo is actually decent compared to other running photos I have. I’m being mean on myself and I’ll stop)

Seeing Dr. Fort to help me determine what’s going on with my migraines is always a great experience. He’s a chiropractor that I have been seeing most of my adult life. He’s been there at my smallest and at my biggest, at my best and my worst, and he’s always been able to get my spine and neck aligned to help me get the best life I can. Discussing with him the migraines, however, is kind of a bummer. The consensus is that my weight lifting is causing the tightening of muscles that are then pulling on the vertebra that are not strong already and that is causing it to tighten. When it tightens, boom. Migraine. His orders? Don’t stop lifting, but if I do shoulders, go lighter. And ice. Lots of ice.

Half Marathon Training begins on July 18, and the first part of it will most certainly be done on the treadmill. It’s really hot outside with feels like temps in the 110s and give that we still haven’t regulated my heart out yet, it’s a very dangerous and bad idea for me to run outside alone. My long runs will be on Sundays with Kat, assuming she’s able to meet up with me. If not, I’ll head into the gym and run there. I’m going to be following the Hal Higdon Half Marathon Training Novice 2 and incorporating that into my classes at the gym. It might mean I get home from the gym later on Tues-Thurs, but I’m determined to make this happen.

On a completely different note, I realized that it’s been one year since I left Channel 4. A lot of things have changed, and I feel like I’m getting back to ‘normal’ or something like it. I’m not where I was 4 or 5 years ago before I started to go down my dark rabbit hole, but I am slowly finding the way out. It’s a learning process and a hard one at that. But I have enough faith in myself to know that I can do this, all on my own if I have to.

So yeah, let’s celebrate the start of July with a rambling post. Yay, July.

 

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One thought on “Hello July

  1. Christine says:

    Hey! Just found your blog through a Google search and I can definitely relate to a lot of the things you’ve gone through (illness, depression, job issues, etc.). I always like reading about other people’s running stories and how they persevere through it when life hands them a bad deal. Thank you for sharing and best of luck with half marathon training! 🙂

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