June has Begun

 

Here’s how life is right now:

Today my dad is getting his third round of intense radiation for stage 4 lung cancer. My dog is up and moving around and she’s making me smile. Grad school is killing me slowly. Work is taking a lot out of me but I still love it. My place is a wreck but I’m desperately trying to put it back together. Dreamboat is in his own little world half the time, and the other half the time I think I have his attention. And I’m back at the gym in the mornings before work.

And I’m exhausted. All. The. Time.

It’s been hard trying to get back in the habit of getting up early enough to work out in the morning, but I know that once I am back in that things will be great. I’m resetting my alarms to wake up at 4:45 so I can actually get up at 5am.¬†Right now it’s not happening. At all. Doesn’t help that Dreamboat is nice and warm and cuddly in bed too. ūüôā

THINK ABOUT THE SWIMSUITS JAMIE! THINK ABOUT THE SWIMSUITS!

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Wait, it’s already May?

Okay, so I said I was going to restart everything on May 1. Well, that day came and passed and I didn’t even notice it. And suddenly it’s May 4th and I was like ‘oh crap!’ when did THAT happen? Well, I was out of town for the weekend so that didn’t help things. Seriously, have I been that busy that I missed the start of May? Apparently, I have been. Well, shit.

Seriously, have I been that busy that I missed the start of May? Apparently, I have been. Well, shit.

The good news is, I’m more aware of things now because I’ve taken a moment to slow down and look at what’s happening around me and not just what’s happening in my office or in my textbook. I mean, my schedule is still stupid insane but I¬†forced myself to sit down with a calendar and write out everything that was happening for work and for school out for the month of May. And then I cried because I have zero time.

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Happy Birthday to Me

For the past 5 years, I’ve done a post called Birthday¬†Facts. I’d do one fact for each year I had been alive. I didn’t feel right doing one this year. Not because I didn’t have 37 new facts that I could have shared with you. I had started the facts a dozen times but just couldn’t finish it. I don’t really have a reason why either, honestly. I just felt like it wouldn’t be fair to do it when I wasn’t being consistent in anything else.

But¬†what I have been consistent in is getting my health figured out. Between my blood pressure issue, my migraines, and my weight, it’s been a tough but productive few years and I can safely say that I am doing better now than I have. I’ve still got a long way to go, of course, but at least I can say things are different now.

And¬†while things aren’t exactly going my way, I’m finally getting to a more stable point. And that makes things easier.

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I want to take a moment and apologize for disappearing again, especially when I told you that I wouldn’t do that anymore. I don’t want to give you an excuse, but my family is going through something pretty horrible right now and I had to take a step away without announcing anything because I was hurt and angry and I ended up lashing out at people irrationally. I can’t discuss with you what the situation is just yet as we are still in the process of informing extended family of what’s going on and going to appointments and the like, but once we have a solid idea of what we are dealing with, I’ll share the information with you. For now, I’m asking for prayers for my family: that we can find strength and understanding in this time. And if you are feeling generous, I know this might be too much to ask, but if you could add a small one in there for me to find some peace of mind and heart … I’d be grateful.

Now, back to what we are all really here for. Fitness.

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Migraine Update

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I had an appointment with my neurologist this morning, and we discussed how my migraines seem to be increasing again. It’s frustrating and the ones I get are debilitating, to say the least. Meredith, one of the doctors there, said that now is the time to reconsider a preventative.

I had very little success with the in the past with the exception of Topamax, which was great for my migraines but I had a few of the severe side effects that potentially put my life in danger and that prompted me to drop off of it really fast. So I was cautiously optimistic when Meredith suggested a different version of the Topamax since it worked before.

Apparently, about two years ago they came out with an extended release version that is supposed to lessen the behavioral side effects of the drug. I would take one a day at night, for a few weeks and with the help of my family, I would track the side effects to see if I was starting to see the behavioral changes again.

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This past weekend was the Daytona Beach Half Marathon. I was actually feeling pretty good going into it, even though I hadn’t been training much. At least not half marathon training. I have been going to the gym pretty regularly and trying to get back into condition. But despite that, I felt good. I knew that I wasn’t doing this for time and I was doing it for fun since I registered for it a thousand years ago and expected to be further along than I am now .

What I didn’t expect was another migraine, my body wanting to shut down on me, and an overall feeling of failure. I crossed the finish line and finished the half but I had signed up for the speedway challenge and had a 5k still to do… which they wouldn’t let me do because I took too long to finish the half. I was disheartened and despite them giving me all of the gear for the challenge, I don’t feel like I earned it.

Here are the lessons I learned from this race:

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Ending January with a BANG!

Well, then. January just done passed me right by, didn’t it? I didn’t even realize that it’s going to be February next week. When did that happen?

It’s amazing how fast time goes when you keep yourself super busy like that. But I’m okay with the craziness of life¬†because it means we are moving forward. I am in my third week of class, am closer to making it to the gym every day and I’m already looking ahead to February with a smile and a focus like no other.

Getting back into the swing of things is pretty amazing if I do say so myself.

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Welcome to 2017

The new year officially started 11 days ago. I am 11 days late in the relaunch, and that simply just explains how life has been for me the past few months. The hiatus I took had a lot to do with that. Between work and family, marriage and getting into school, my health and my hopes, I simply had to take some time off and get, as they say, my shit together. It took some time, and it’s going to be a very tight schedule for a while, but I think it’s going to work.

So, here’s what’s new.

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Hiatus

Due to circumstances beyond my control, this blog is going to be on hiatus (again) until January 2017.

Please follow me on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram for now!

thank you for your understanding!

Hello again, October

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I kind of disappeared again. I honestly didn’t mean to, but I keep doing it inadvertently. Sometimes life gets in the way of things and I’m left having to figure out ¬†what to do first, what to do next and what can wait. I don’t want to give excuses, so I won’t. Just know that I am trying my best to get back to my normal and everyday I make steps to get there no matter what gets done or doesn’t.

Now. We are officially 8 weeks from my first half marathon and I am part excited and part terrified. I feel wholly unprepared and nervous. And that’s only 8 weeks out!

Good thing I have a plan.

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